Where Have I been??

I have had quite the hiatus from this little blog of mine, I have been having one of the roughest years of my life. I have had so many negative and hard things happen to myself, and my family so far this year, and I am about done with it! I last blogged in February, In March a pipe burst in my master bathroom and leaked down through the ceiling in the play room. We spent a week in a hotel room and are still finishing the master bathroom from this. In May right after Mothers Day another pie burst, this time in the kitchen, this fix wasn't as easy as the bathroom. The entire kitchen had to be gutted the floor, counter tops, and eventually the cabinets were all replaced. I lived for 6 weeks in a 600 sq ft 2 bed 2ba hotel room, this would have felt like a vacation except for the fact that I have 3 very active boys and a little girl I nanny on top of that. I was also driving both boys to school and picking them up, normally they take a 15 min bus ride. It was a nightmare to say the least.

Once we got home we got busy, working on projects that had been on hold while we lived in a hotel. My husband and I were excited to have our 3 boys stay with relatives for a week so we could tackle most of the projects we had left and really get our house in order. On July 22nd I met my mom in Ashland, Oregon as the half way point and dropped the two older boys with her for a week. We slept there for the night, and early the next morning we went our separate ways, I was almost to Salem Oregon and about halfway from home when I glanced to the south bound side of the freeway, their was an accident, and as I glanced back in front of me, I saw all the cars almost stopped and I slammed on my brakes.....the next thing I knew I was laying on my side in a completely totaled vehicle. I thought I had felt and heard a splash so I quickly freed myself so that I could get out to swim, when I stood up I realized I was not in any water, and that is when I noticed the waterfall of blood streaming from my mouth. I was taken quickly to the hospital and checked out top to bottom.

 I had a 3rd degree burn on my shoulder and chest from the seat belt that saved my life, my tongue barely in one piece and a very large and deep cut in my mouth. I had several stitches and pain medicine, and waited for my husband to arrive so we could make a 4 hour trek home. I can honestly say I had never felt so terrified in my life, nor have I ever felt so relieved not to have my children with me. I have recovered physically from this accident but emotionally will take awhile. I feel like I am crashing whenever I step on the brakes, or feel the motion of stopping in a car. I feel trapped to my close surroundings, and impatient to get better so I can again be the driver I once was, the driver who loved long trips, and driving for hours. I hope you will share in this journey of healing with me, I already feel better after writing this.